|…when all the clouds darken up the skyways…
I’m still feelin’ the rain fall, bouncin’ off my skin
How long do I have to wait for the sun to shine again?
Come on, paint me a rainbow so I can follow it
I don’t know where it’ll take me but I like wonderin’
~ from Colbie Caillat’s “Rainbow”
So here we are – the second installment of “Thankful Thursdays”. I’ll be honest and say that today has been one of those days that it’s been hard to find something to be thankful for. Not because there isn’t anything to be thankful for (far from it). With the day starting out gray, gloomy, and drizzly, combined with lack of adequate sleep and the pressures of work building, it’s really difficult to see past the storm clouds that darken the sky (both literally and figuratively) and try to find something to be thankful for.
I’m seriously giving Oscar the Grouch a run for his money today. And I think I’m winning.
If it were up to me, I would have called off this “Thankful Thursday” on account of rain. I would have called in sick, laid in bed, and simply sleep through this Thursday and try to forget such a gloomy day ever existed. Perhaps I could have been a lot more amicable that way.
But it’s not always up to me – responsibility beckons me and pushes me out into a dismal world, wondering if I’ll ever see the end of the gray and cold that keeps lingering despite the fact that Spring is (allegedly) here.
Fast forward a few hours…
After having dropped by the apartment around lunchtime (to walk the dog) and picking up lunch from Moe’s (I HAVE to eat there at LEAST once a week), I was heading back to work when I noticed that the world was slowly becoming brighter. I looked up at the sky and realized that the clouds were breaking, and the sun was starting to shine through. It was a marvelous sight…a marvelous light…and a smile started creeping its way across my face despite myself. I felt a surge of energy and excitement…and a new found sense of hope that, yes, Spring truly has arrived.
It’s redemption…pure and simple redemption…from the recesses of my dark, cloudy soul.
So today, I am thankful that, while in the throes of escalating grumpiness, God has given me a moment to feel whole again…to feel like this day truly is worth living. He has sent that “rainbow highway,” leading me back to a place beyond the rain and sorrow. Sure there is still a chance of afternoon showers (and snow), but no matter where this beautiful, crisp Spring day will take me and my moods, I’m grateful for a chance to feel hopeful again.
Sometimes, you have to experience the gloominess of life.
Only then can you truly appreciate the little things
(like breaking clouds) that light it up.