Family · Giving Thanks

Musings of a Mommy | Chapter 23

It’s been a long time, folks. I honestly cannot think of a single excuse for being away from the blog for so long other than…well, life. I’ve been spending the summer learning to accept and enjoy the new normal that is the An household (with baby and in-laws in tow). It’s been a rocky road, but I feel we are starting to groove with the changes.

That being said, we have reached a point of major change for all of us. Since he was 3 months old, Toby has been attending daycare…full time at first, and then two days a week once the in-laws moved in. From Day One, he really took to the situation. His teachers loved him, and he loved the different environment and being around other children his age. In fact, I was a little sad when I dropped him off that first day and he didn’t even look back as I walked out of the classroom (sigh). But that’s just the kind of kid he is – independent, adventurous, and a killer smile that wins over the hardest of hearts.

But yesterday, we had to say goodbye to his beloved first school and teachers. Since moving to our current home, we have been traveling about 45 minutes to and hour to drop him off at daycare and then get to work (or home at the end of the day). The drive got to be a bit much, so we decided to enroll him at a daycare that would reduce the drive time. As happy as we are about the prospect of proximity, we were sad to leave the teachers who have helped him develop into the wonderful little boy he is today.

I’m sorry…tearing up a bit here. T.T

Thank you, Ms. Jan, Miss Amy, Miss Elizabeth, Miss Lauren, and Miss Joanne (not pictured…WAH!!) for a wonderful 5 months of caring for our baby boy. He loves each and every one of you, and we are so appreciative of the awesome care and love you have given him. We hope to visit you again soon!

Of course, this leaves this mama a little nervous about next Thursday, when he starts all over again in a new school. Having changed homes and schools about 4 or 5 times in my own life, I always wanted to provide a greater sense of stability for my own children. Everyone says he will adjust better since he is so young, but I cannot help but feel nervous for him. Will he be scared in a new environment? Will he look for his old teachers and panic when his new teachers try to care for him? Will he develop a sense of separation anxiety from me and dad (which he has not had an issue with at all to this point)? There is a lot of anxiety in this mama’s heart right now.

But it is what it is…and he will go to a new school, for better or for worse. All this mama can do is pray for God to provide Toby with all he needs to adjust…and thrive! I don’t know what His plans are for my baby boy…but I know He loves him even more than I can imagine. When I cannot be there with him, He is always there. So I will place my trust in God to protect and provide for my little one.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.  [Jeremiah 29:11-13 ESV]

Let it be, Lord.

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